For You (my last poem) Original Poetry

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This will be my last poem about you

The last chapter in a book it has taken me too long to write

A phrase that sounded good at first but every time I would revisit, found it had too many run on sentences

Too often I tried to recreate a feeling that continued to disappear

Soft melodies left cascading down the page

Harmonies left unfinished

Repeating verses upon verses all in the name of love

I kept yearning to be drowned in passion yet you always left me thirsty

I finally realized that your other obsession wasn’t me

Leaving me in a desert, searching for a pool of savior

I awakened to find that the only person who loved me unconditionally was me

Cause beloved you will let the hopes of a faded out career leave you homeless

and the ego desire to be with big tits and a fat ass that could give you syphilis cost you true love

I realize now it is time for me to pull down the shades

Close the door to the love that I tried to resurrect

That’s why this will be the last poem I write for you

My golden pen will be too busy writing for myself

Helping me to release, grieve and recover myself that I can rise and love again

Yes I’ll no longer write poetry for you, my words will be reserved for passionate whispers under satin sheets.

Love will always be the answer for me

Now that I no longer have to question

(c) M. Tonita Austin aka Toni Love

5.7.2023

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Meet Me: at the 4th Annual ladiesnight Saturday, March 30th at 8pm in Germantown

I’ll be doing what I do Saturday March 30th, 8pm at the 4th annual ladiesnight at the #Malelanicafe in the Germantown section of Philadelphia 💜 6734 Germantown Avenue. We will be closing out Women’s #Herstory month with music, comedy and poetry.

There will be a diverse group of artists and food and drinks to purchase.

It’s $10 for the guys and $5 for the women.


Tell your friends to pull up! I just might be wearing this color lip 💜💋

I would love to see you there!

Toni Love ❤️

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Just a few months left..

Hey did you know that I am the Mad Poet Society of Pennsylvania’s Poet of the Year?

“The Mad Poets Society, a non-profit 501(c)(3) tax exempt arts organization, is an integral part of the Philadelphia writing community. Mad Poets has grown from humble roots and a handful of poets at Media Borough Hall in Delaware County, Pennsylvania, to over 100 members in six states.  It is an active organization of poets and writers who have joined together for camaraderie and critique with heart, to celebrate the creative soul and to promote the literary arts. “

https://www.madpoetssociety.com/about

In just a few months, I will have to give up my crown to another worthy poet. Each year they choose a poet who is given the opportunity to feature their work on their blog along with insight into their inspiration for the poem that they choose for the month. I am proud to be a mad poet and I thoroughly enjoy every event, poetry reading and book review that I’ve experienced and am in awe of the creativity, brilliance and compassion of the poets I’ve met.

It has been an honor and challenge to choose 12 poems out of all that I have written, but I am thoroughly enjoying it. I hope you hop over to their blog to check out the poem that was featured in January, as I think about what I will choose for February. Which love poem should I choose?

Sending you much love !

Toni

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Fearless #original poetry

Fearless ~ #originalpoetry

Sometimes you have to forget that you’re somebody’s momma, someone else’s nurturer, someone else’s provider, boss, therapist, housecleaner, mentor, hero and role model and just be. Be free. Be in spaces and places no one would expect you to be. Hair and toes out, dancing /swaying/moving/ calling in joy, calling in Josephine Baker, Dorothy Dandridge and every ancestor who conspired to form your hips, lips and freedom.
Be seen, be joyfilled, be unapologetic, be around people eager to give without expectation of receiving. Just once my beloved sisters, be fearless. Be free.
Repeat often until it’s comfortable.

❤️M. Tonita Austin aka Toni Love (c) 1.4.23

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My ODE to George (Original Poetry)

From: Black History Mini Docs

My ODE to George. 

The first night of your trial I stood waiting for my son to return home. 

The cops showed up first after stopping him for running. 

My heart jumped outside of my chest as I struggled to prepare myself for the worst.

As he does every night,

he was running 

Running in his own neighborhood. 

Running at night because as a black boy He knows that black men who run in the daytime get chased and murdered. 

So he runs to feel freedom in the dark of the night. 

Stopped just minutes from his home by four police vehicles. 

That’s 4 x 2 officers approaching a 19 year old boy who wanted to run but by the grace of God stood still. 

Anxiety. Heart racing. Traumatized. Sweating. Sweating. Breathing.

Refusing the courtesy ride home in the back of the police car. 

He was innocent. 

No apologies for being accused of fitting the description of someone who was running and not doing anything but fitting the description of every black boy profiled. 

A black boy running at night. 

The cops told me that he wasn’t running when they stopped him. Thank God, I thought. 

Because black boys who run get murdered. 

So today I feel sad for you and all of the children we’ve lost to racism. 

Today I selfishly thank you.

Thank you George for your life because it may have saved the life of my son. 

A black boy who just wanted to breathe fresh air. 

A black boy who just wants to feel freedom. 

I pray for him. 

I honor You. 

You couldn’t breathe but he will breathe and run and stop and take breath and return home again today 

I pray . 

~ M. Tonita Austin aka Toni Love 

written on the second anniversary of George Floyd’s murder. 5.25.22

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She’s here! 💞 “Toni’s Room” is now a poetry book!

She’s here! I did it Daddy! 💥The paperback version of “Toni’s Room is available for sale! 🤸🏿‍♀️💓 I dedicated my first poetry book to my children because they are my biggest fans. It is currently available as Kindle version and paperback on Amazon. I am planning a few local book signings and also have signed copies available to order on my website at 👉🏽bit.ly/tonilovemerch . Thank you all and especially my coach Gwenn Prinbeck for gently pushing me to uncover all that I am.
“What’s the greater risk? Letting go of what people think – or letting go of how I feel, what I believe, and who I am?” ~ Brene’ Brown

I am so thankful for all of my supporters who purchased books, hosted book signings and helped promote !

Let’s Stay in touch!

Media, PA
For Inquiries and Promotions:
tonitalove2@gmail.com

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Who is Toni Love?

I was interviewed and featured by Connected Woman Magazine last year shortly after the release of my poetry EP titled The Restoration. My expectation was different than the outcome. I thought I would be talking more about myself as a writer and possibly my journey and experience producing my first body of work; I ended up exposing my life story and sharing my experience strength and hope to all of the women (and possibly men) in need of restoration!

Connected Woman Magazine was gracious enough to revive last year’s article and you can check it out for yourself. If you want to hear the CD, you can purchase a limited edition, autographed copy for $10 to celebrate the second anniversary of the release!

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I hope you take time to rest, reflect and rejuvenate over the holiday weekend and come out of it restored and ready!

Make today great and remember #loveistheanswer!

 

The Restoration CD

"Toni's CD is a lovely and intensely positive affair, taking her highly personal, even intimate poetry and setting it to soulful grooves and atmospheric arrangements. " - Robb McCall

$10.00

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Who Is Toni Love?

Have you had your heart broken and are afraid to love again? Do you feel like you give yourself to others and don’t know how to love yourself? Do you yearn for a surge of passion and romance in your life? Do you love good music and poetry? If you can say yes to any or all of these questions, then do yourself a favor and click the link below to order my debut EP titled “The Restoration”. I intertwine poetry with the brilliant music of Robb McCall to explore all of the above emotions and feelings. As you allow yourself to become immersed in the music and share in my journey, I am confident you will fall in love with love again!

You can purchase the entire EP with the bonus track or download the digital version by clicking the link below:

Order The Restoration on CD BABY.COM.

If you would like an autographed copy of the EP, or a Toni Love T-shirt, please visit my site by clicking here —-> Order Toni Love Music and Merchandise.

All CDs, t-shirts and tickets ordered from my site will arrive with a hand written thank you note and autographed as you choose.

The Restoration is my gift to you. I believe we can do nothing without love first. I offer you a chance to release old love, rekindle your current love or to believe that the love you seek will become more than a dream. Get the love you desire today!

~ I thank you for the love! Toni

#loveistheanswer

 

 

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Save the Date and celebrate Women’s Herstory Month at the Imperfect Gallery in Philadelphia!

split photo of two brown skinned females, on the left side the woman is positioned sideways facing a microphone, has a curly afro and is wearing a red t shirt. The woman on the right side is facing forward with a slight smile, wearing locs and a flower top with spaghetti straps.

Hey poetry fans, if you haven’t been to the Imperfect Gallery located at 5539 Germantown Avenue in the Germantown section of Philadelphia, you are formally invited to come out during the entire month of March.

The entire month will be dedicated to Women artists, and if you want to see me and the phenomenal Sabriaya, (check out her full bio on her website) a poet, educator and storyteller, then mark your calendars and stop by The Imperfect Gallery on March 14th, 2024 at 6PM. The $15 cover supports the artists with work on display, the performers and the beautiful art gallery.

Seating is limited, so please come early.

I’m honored to be sharing the “stage” with all of the talented women who will be in the space, and sharing some poetry that you’ve never heard before.

Feel free to drop a heart below and share your excitement about coming. Your presence would mean the world to me!

#loveistheanswer

LOVE, Toni

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Come out to the Mad Poets Festival October 1st, 12-5 pm

Bring a non perishable food item to feed a family and stay to feed your soul with poetry from 50 poets! You can check the website for the schedule of poets . I’m scheduled for 3PM. ❤️

The Mad Poets Festival is coming up this weekend! Come out on October 1st between noon and 5 to get your poetic fix, meet some fabulous poets, and even pick up a book or two. Don’t forget to bring your canned goods – we will be collecting non-perishable food items for the Chester County Food Bank at the event.

For all the details, and for a full list of readers, click HERE to go to the event page on our website.

See you there!

https://www.madpoetssociety.com/events/2023/10/1/mad-poets-festival-2023?ss_source=sscampaigns&ss_campaign_id=65117b5d44297f72c9ce5e70&ss_email_id=65117c683496a72bdc27d446&ss_campaign_name=Mad+Poets+Festival+Less+Than+a+Week+Away%21&ss_campaign_sent_date=2023-09-25T12%3A26%3A58Z

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The Black Women’s Arts Festival 2023!

Come out and support local artists!

💥SAVE THE DATE 💥
I’m excited to join the other artists performing at the @officialbwafphilly
17th Annual Black Women’s Arts Festival – a showcase of multi-media arts by women of African heritage!❤️

THIS is a #FREE #Live in person event at The Rotunda, 4014 Walnut St, Philadelphia on Saturday AND Sunday, September 16-17 2023 from 1pm-7pm.

🌟

Featuring:

M. Tonita Austin (poet), O (performance #art), Sincere Melody (#spokenword), Badd Gurlz Inq (#music), Naa Koikoi Aziza Zinzile Kebe (poet), Asha Mollock (film), @GhettoSongBird (music), Cassendre Xavier (musician/host/founder), Tamara L. Xavier (choreographer/#dancer), and more.

🌟All People’s Open Mic from 6pm-7pm both days, and more TBA.
🌟Vendors include Kai Moon Oceans (art prints, hair clips & earrings), Nina Bolden (#fashion), Atiya Ola’s Spirit First Foods, Rayla (#jewelry & #spiritual products) and Evyonna Stevenson (crotchet items for home, wardrobe #dolls) and MORE.

❤️I will hit the stage Sunday at 3PM, but I hope you come both days to support all of the phenomenal #BlackWomen artists !

#ToniLove
#poetsofig
#poetrybook
#TONILOVENYCBOOKLAUNCH
#TonisRoomDCbooklaunch
#selfpublished
#selfcareaware
#soloparent
#mothersnotmartyrs
#writersofinstagram
#poet
#blackwomenwriters
#phillypoet

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AUGUST 8, 7PM Poetry & Open Mic

Spend 8/8 infused in poetry ✨️ Come out to the ‘Livin on Luck’ poetry series at Barnabys in West Chester, PA where I’ll be featured with the brilliant poets Warren Longmire and Elijah Pringle!

Bring a poem for the open mic and money to buy some refreshments, support the Mad Poets Society and poetry books.

You can find more details by following the link below. I hope to see you there!

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